3.27.2003

"For their materials, for the art world, for school, for the macrocosm of art school. I mean, schools to show you how to be an artist? What the hell is that?"


"The artists I like are the ones who have done their work in secret who have been secretly and quietly doing something. They have work that would be difficult to sell or even show -- they have that purity...you have to go into people's secret diaries and get them to show you things they're afraid to show."

-Joseph Mills

3.26.2003


Sometimes in dreams, do you take on other physical properties. Are you ever made of a variety of plastics?

3.07.2003


Sex life
Art life
Death life

3.06.2003

today
i was thinking
about art

3.05.2003

Senate Study Explains Spike in Oil Prices

do you remember my ramblings back in the corner days about the "great petroleum wars?" about how the oil companies would become the government - distinctions blurred.

you know, back in the days when we believed we predicted the future.

3.04.2003

Welcome to the White House

Perfect Pornography
Propaganda Perpetrators
Pandering Profits

2.24.2003

"I've liked taking drugs for a good long while and it's pretty much always, apart from the few freakouts, been really valuable on the level of this kind of responsiveness to place.... Of course, you can just mess it up. I'm quite drawn to the confusion that drug use can lead to.... That in itself provides insight into a contemporary malaise."
-Geoff Dyer
The birds are starting to come back. And thank goodness too.
As kids in business suits talk into their hands. An audience indifferent.
Inspiration found in dreams and the middlespaces of not-quite-wakeful moments.
Spring is, well, springing fourth. Slowly, at first, but then at an unbelievable pace.
I kiss the ground I stand upon in thanks for my unbelievable luck and the goodness thrust upon me.

2.21.2003

After all, George Washington was a skilled equestrian. Jefferson called him the best horseman of his age.

2.04.2003

I've been thinking about this for a while
As I drive home, crossing Falls
Democracy becoming Glen

The ancient tombstones peripherally left
Look amazingly like children playing in a park
Never ceases to amaze

1.29.2003

suddenly i realize i don't know anything
or
have any particular skills

how long can i fake it
and
get by on charm and will?

1.02.2003

last night
i had an appendectomy

today is
one-two-three

one eye closed
the other eye crossed

pain is relative
so are experiences and perspectives

shake rhymes with
bake

i wear my scars like
earrings

12.30.2002

Moving from one scary bathroom to another
our American journey continues AS IF it never began

Awaiting decisions about time and place
the girls have come out to play

But I wait still
and it seems like forever since I knew myself

12.12.2002

[Post Originally Untitled]

actually, nothing much to say, but here goes:

- belts are addictive
- puppies were a hoax

11.21.2002

The following mail can't be sent to AMGCHICAGO@aol.com:

From: ty@middlespace.net
To: AMGCHICAGO@aol.com
Subject: 2002 Lily
The file is the original mail

11.14.2002

They are down with all the siblings
I am downwards with all the brothers
I am for I lower with all the brothers
I am down with all brothers

11.12.2002


Everybody thinks they know something.

11.04.2002

What I have learned is that when Anne has something to say, it's always worth a good listen and a serious consideration. She's the most thoughtful (full of thought) person I know. Thus, she's often spot on with the important stuff. I cherish her opinion even when my own stubborn personality results in bad personal decisions or foolhardy gambles. And, she's never said "I told you so."

Where have we gone? If the senate flips and the house holds, we've got serious problems as Americans. In Maryland, democratic voters outnumber republicans 5-to-1 and Ehrlich is out-polling Townsend. And, Connie, dear Connie will probably win the 8th district...again. Where are we going? The saddest part is we, as Americans, have given up. We have numbed ourselves to the obvious and have taken the easy route to our own demise. Most of the educated world look upon us, collectively, as suicidal idiots.

I've said many times during Bush's (Bush Jr.) tenure that I wish I were dumb and didn't process all the mayhem. But, I ain't and I do. It's a mess and it may get a whole lot uglier. The beautiful thing is, experts project the lowest voter turnout in 60 years - since World War II, when the voting population was but a fraction of those eligible now.

I cringe when I think of Junior flying all over the country, poorly reading buzz phrases to cheering and adoring audiences or zealots and hand-picked campaign stooges. I cringe when I think of how my taxes are spent. I cringe when I see the little man on the TeeVee and I hold my breath and hold my nose while I listen to random words and phrases that make no sense to me or to him. I want to cry as much as I want to laugh.

It may not be in my lifetime, but the big karma pendulum is bound to swing back someday. At least, that's what gets me through the day.

10.24.2002


For the very first time
I am not enjoying my birthday
Historically it has been
A month-long celebration
With giddy anticipation beforeward
And
Giggly memories afterhand

I do not mind the getting older aspect
I cherish that
I am blessed with good friends
And a wondrous family
I have no private complaints

But I am weary
So worn and weak
My mind sleeps in the day
Any my body fails in the eve

This birthday floats with resentment
It would be wholly selfish
To celebrate things only personally
relevant
Sharing only my joy
Taking without giving

A life spanned by anchors
Leeuwenhoek to Robinson
Naked between the ears
Deaf to the rumblings
on earth

Happy birthday to me
Will we ever learn

10.22.2002

I read it on the BBC
So it must be true
Our universe is doomed to collapse
Dark energy surviving
In place of all that ever…was
In a mere ten to twenty
Billion years
So I must say my goodbyes and I-love-yous now
Because I have many to say

They say the Nazis built an antigravity device
During World War II
Its absence from present science
Implies vast black worlds of secret aircraft
That might explain the UFOs people see
Over Area 51
Or the hidden tunnels under the White House
Full of lizard-men disguised as Freemasons

And a sniper is hunting me
For sins long ago committed
Stuff I swear was prayed away
In past lives
But as long as I keep running
No one will catch me
No one can catch me